Every November I make a point of practicing daily gratitude on Facebook. You may know that I try to practice gratitude 365 days a year, but the truth is…I don’t always remember, nor do I *always* put a ton of thought into it. But every November, I make certain I am intentional about thankfulness every single day. Some days I write something easy and obvious, like my gratitude and love for my child, for my mom, for my friends, for music. Today I was inspired to write a blog post.
Today, I feel such gratitude for time, space and most of all, perspective. Time, space and perspective in the past three years have given me some clarity about long-term relationships:
-Chemistry is not quite enough, as delicious as it is.
-Even love alone is not enough, as hard a pill as that is to swallow.
Yes, with time, space and perspective, I finally realize that a true partnership requires more than what my ex and I had in our marriage.
With time and space and perspective, I have learned that a long-term, healthy partnership requires a commitment to bring out the best in each other. It makes each other better humans simply by being in each other’s lives. It requires the ability to inspire each other to never stop growing and evolving. It requires open and vulnerable communication. Maybe most of all – a healthy partnership requires us to work on ourselves and never stop. Self-awareness is key. Self-love and acceptance are too. Those things are what makes a partnership thrive and last. And of course, chemistry and love matter too. 😉
Time, space and perspective have allowed me to realize that my ex and I no longer brought out the best in each other. We did not grow together. We may have grown up alongside each other, but we grew apart while evolving. We were not supporting each other the way healthy partners do. While I know I did my best with what I knew at the time, I now know more. And when you know better, you do better. (Thank you therapy, meds and a whole lot of other self-help work!)
If I’m ever granted the opportunity and privilege of having a life partner in the future, this I know for sure. I know I will not take one moment for granted. I know I will not take him for granted. I know I will support his goals and dreams and evolution as a human because I have learned how to do this for myself. I know I will openly communicate my wants and needs (because I’ve always done that). I know I will never stop working on myself. I won’t be starting from scratch. I will be starting from experience. I won’t make the same mistakes twice. I will never not be thankful for a second chance. And I know it will be the most amazing experience — better than I can even imagine…because second chances are magical.
So many songs have spoken to me in this new chapter of my life. Here is one example…
“Happiness” lyrics, by Taylor Swift:
“Honey, when I’m above the trees
I see this for what it is
But now I’m right down in it
All the years I’ve given
Is just shit we’re dividing up
Showed you all of my hiding spots
I was dancing when the music stopped
And in the disbelief
I can’t face reinvention
I haven’t met the new me yet
There’ll be happiness after you
But there was happiness because of you
Both of these things can be true
There is happiness
Past the blood and bruise
Past the curses and cries
Beyond the terror in the nightfall
Haunted by the look in my eyes
That would’ve loved you for a lifetime
Leave it all behind
And there is happiness
Tell me, when did your winning smile
Begin to look like a smirk?
When did all our lessons start to look like weapons pointed at my deepest hurt?
I hope she’ll be a beautiful fool
Who takes my spot next to you
No, I didn’t mean that
Sorry, I can’t see facts through all of my fury
You haven’t met the new me yet
There’ll be happiness after me
But there was happiness because of me
Both of these things I believe
There is happiness
In our history
Across our great divide
There is a glorious sunrise
Dappled with the flickers of light
From the dress I wore at midnight
Leave it all behind
And there is happiness”
Perspective is everything. What do you think? Did I miss anything when it comes to healthy relationships? Weigh in!